hahha ha .............................(jane kya baat hue part 2)......

when i was in lalita ghat banaras .i was in male form and was a uuch koti sadhak .he said tht we were called there to mahakal temple .I too have seen tht now i visit only those places where im CALLED ......

we went to samadhi of saints which where in hills .the samadhis were at the top most level of hills where very few chosen ones can only visit . i felt the warmth and presence of saints there .

we started to talk on soul level (with those saints) and i told them that ill again come ........it was as if we knew each other from long time .This too happened at night .In hills roads becomes deserted after sunset .The light of moon was showing us our path towards DESTINATION.

sitting on the samadhi at top most level in night in chandani raat was just amazing with presences of saints ...........

jane kya baat hue ......................

i met him in mahakal temple palampur ...........a devotee and dissolving in oneness ..........

HIS GURU WAS DISCIPLE OF RAMANA MAHARSHI . He had darsan of mahakal in very young age when he was preparing for IAS exam .frm that moment his life changed and he was ordered frm above to serve mahakal and mahakali .

i had many beautiful experiences with this beloved fellow named RAM

he performed a very beautiful devotion puja of mahakal ( lord shiva) with us .i always used to say frm my childhood that lord shiva is my father ,so being in mahakal temple in a very serene and silent place ........made me a hollow bamboo for lord to flow frm me ............

i had darsan of mahadevi my mother mahakali ...........

my whole body was shaking kundalni was hitting shasdhara .........my eyes were closed and tears were rolling down .........

for two hrs nearly this continued ........i was one with MA .Ram understood wht had happened to me so he very swiftly opened his almira and took a red chunri and wrapped me with it .

It was nearly 11pm night .i was sitting in a small room of RAM in mahakal temple .

ram took his tanpura and started singing bhajjans of his guru and mahakali .

we had never ever had heard such a heartfull song with classic touch . ram told us tht he had never learnt any music ...........its only tht in presence of mahakali or in good sangat his beingness starts singing ..............

it was tremendously beautiful in dark night he was singing ...............with such devotion and ones with mahakali ma.

we returned back to our hotel but my imness was in deep silence ,whole night it was a trance state where imness too was dissolved .i was feeling as if i was mahakali .To be in communion with lord you have to become lord itself .

next day we went to temple again ..........

Ram shared his feelings telling me that he was not able to sleep whole nt and was sitting in meditation in frnt of MA.

he was revealed by blessing of kalima that he was connected to me frm my past life ...........................

rest next time ...........................................

my first outer body experience........with BUDDHA

A SMALL SHARING OF 1990

My first outer body experience was with Buddha.......

It was mid night and i was in sleep

suddenly i saw lord Buddha ..as i saw him i came out of body .

As if HE asked me to come out and follow him. I was totally thoughtless and was just following HIM like a small child ............

HE took me to many dimensions which i never knew .It was like we were crossing many skies.i was walking behind HIM enchanted..knowing nothing....... totally blank .After crossing many dimensions we came to a place where there was a ladder . The ladder was full of golden light .The light was so bright that i was not able to see beyond it clearly .The light on the top few ladder was brightest and it was descending downwards .................Buddha walked to the highest step of ladder and I was standing on the first .The golden light was touching my feet .I was seeing Buddha and HE was seeing me .

a message came to me as if HE was saying tht im the last step.I AM THE ULTIMATE and you are on the first .I felt that i was the BUDDHA and in coming time ill climb all these ladders and will disappear on the highest point .The image of BUDDHA then became small and like an arrow it came in on my heart chakra .I found a golden BUDDHA within.

(Frm the memory diary of a mad woman )

desires r beautiful .

The whole process these days r to be desire less .......(.laughhssssss) but I feel desires are beautiful .

Desires are part of being human.desires and emotions help us to undestand life . they are gifts from nature to humans .

if emotion of romance arises in a teenager ,the desire to fulfill it gets attached to it automatically .this desire helps to bloom the flower of romance in tht particular beingness.......the seeking for more romance arises .if the beingness accepts the romance without any conceptual thinking then the flower blooms completely and the beingness understands the emotion of romance and gets de tached .

one can only understand life when lives it completely ,watching it ,feeling it ,knowing it reading it .once a emotion is lived with total acceptance, it drops and the character attached to it too drops .the imness gets detached.

To experience something which is beyond life and form one has to sail the boat of imness in the river of life.

laughter section

According to the popular Muslim belief, when one fell sick, one called upon the prayers and the good wishes of those considered god-fearing and pious. In a despaired state, a man whose son was very sick called on a nearby Bektashi Baba; he asked the Baba to come to recite prayers in order that his boy be cured. The Baba, who cannot get out of this duty, accepted the plea and soon arrived at the door of the townsman. Standing near the child, he opened his hands towards the sky and prayed, “My God, make it so that this boy dies immediately.” The horrified father grabbed the Baba and threw him out of the house. Many days later the man came across the Baba on the street and said, “Do you remember when you came to recite prayers for my son and, contrary to what I asked of you, you asked God to take his life? Well God did not listen to you and, El-Hamdulillah, my son is cured!” The Bektashi started to laugh and responded, “It’s for that reason that I cursed the lad. I have been on bad terms with God lately and He has been giving me the opposite of what I ask for!”

ENLIGHTENMENT ...........HOW IT HAPPENED TO ANITA

It was certainly very different experience ....

i used lock myself in my meditation room for hrs and hrs after sending kids to school.

domestic helpers were instructed not to knock my room until its urgency . my meditation room was very big with pic of osho on one wall .i used to just sit in the room and surrender .used to pray to help me to hold me and to give me what was needed at that sphere of time.As i knew nothing ...nothing what to do ..which way to walk and which meditation to try .I used to say that lord im your part so you know best abt me so you hold my hand and take me to your path .

that day i locked my self and stood in front of OSHO .within second a image of white light appeared in front of me and i was out ...........................GONE .........ONE WITH EVERY THING .i felt as a pot broke on my heart chakra...and something was out .That something was me.........................some how i dragged myself to the near by chair as i was not able to stand .

after that there was no feeling of any body ...............................just was ......................in EVERY BIT .after 5to 6 hrs when i didn't open my door and my kids were back home my servants started knocking my room's door.I was pulled back to my body through SILVER CORD .I entered my body through my head .my head seemed to me as heavy as thousands of elephants.Entering in body was a very slow process .i was on bed as a corpse ,experiencing as some thing was entering .

After this incident i used to wake at 4am and used to sit in meditation near OSHO .near by i had an easy chair where i used to feel tht somebody was sitting ...in white clothes ..big white bread .i was not able to see his face nor there was any effort to know .as i knew he was osho .for months this continued .i didnt feel hunger ,there was no need of sleep ,didnt feel need of any thing as if i was in deep trance state .each night at 4am i used to get up very fresh and used to sit in silence and HE used to sit near me .From that incident i felt that few plp hmm 4/5 of them started guarding me .from then onwards thy r with me .It was a big blast which blew the 5 tatwa away frm the energy which governs it .

The real journey started frm here. I still don't know whts it called in words but ys i call it enlightenment boz frm here I knew what I was .I recognized my SELF .I knew i was not bhagwan (bhumi ,gagan ,wayu,agni ,neer) rather was much beyond that .A flower bloomed in the garden of SELF .

miojuigfcfdre\sazsaewrytu9o0nhrwxyztytthahaahaha............

dont take me seriously im a mad woman

;)

(this was written boz of nalini

one of my sweetheart a beautiful devotee of SELF)

HOW HOW WOW MOW NOW CHOW

ALL HOW HOW IS ANSWERED...........

WHEN BEING

DROPS

IN HOWLESS

LIFE NEVER GIVES WHT U WANT ,IT PROVIDES UR NEEDS .

U NEVER KNOW YOUR NEEDS ,U RUN AFTER WANTS..........

WANTS RUN AFTER MORE WANTS...